Why I'm Here

I need to create. The intrinsic obsessive-compulsive need to be productive that is in every adolescent has been a part of me as long as I can remember thinking profound thoughts. Sparked by the ever-present pressure to achieve, but driven by the simple goal of being myself, it is constant, evolving thought that drives my sense of individuality, which in turn, drives my need to create. Creation is the most direct means of self-expression, as it comesfrom myself and from myself only.

For far too long I’ve constrained myself to solely the medium of music. However broad a medium it is, it is still predominantly formulaic in nature. For this reason, an artist will spend far too much time trying to find the exact right rhythm, intonation, allusion, diction or rhyme, and not enough time developing exactly what it is that he is trying to get out. His thought.

While these tough restrictions may have the ability to separate the truly genius artists from the rest, it is a devastatingly laborious process that often leaves the true beauty of creation in its dust. In my experience, I have become so fed up with my own creations by their completion, that I was unable to enjoy the idea I originally set out to present secondarily to the world, but primarily to myself.

For this reason I have set out to explore writing. Writing as I see it is the most primal way that our thoughts can be permanently preserved and expressed. We practice the skill continuously and persistently every moment of our lives, organizing words and ideas into whatever order we damn well please to suit our needs. Sadly, the majority of the beautiful process of human thought is left between our own ears, rather than being shared with someone else’s. How else better than to bring fruit to your conscious thought by giving it contact with paper (or a blog in this case)? That way, your individuality, rather than being spread to one person through conversation, can be spread infinitely by paper.

With this blog I hope to explore what it means to be truly human, and take any readers along on my journey. As I believe that abstract and profound thought and ideation are intrinsic human qualities, I know for a fact that anyone, were thy to look hard enough, would find a chord ringing truth in my long, sometimes descriptive but always hard to follow, run on sentences.

I will, of course, continue to explore my passions of photography and music, and will try not to let my societally bred perfectionist qualities show, as true beauty is found in the raw, untamed thoughts of the mind.